Kittens mew mew

I just discovered that normal members can now borrow 2 AV materials which can include audiobooks, audio cds and DVDs and i decided to make a trip down to the library@esplanade.

Wow. Just.. WOW. why haven’t i been here before. Why did i stick with the puny, non browsable selection at the NUS library?? There’s a veritable feast of concert DVDs, television serials (found lost seasons 1-4), classic and new movies, instructional videos, music scores. I got myself 2 concert dvds of franz ferdinand and john mayer. Shall get myself more soon.

Also, saw this quote on the wall.

“Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon”

– Michael Jackson (1958-2009), Gone Too Soon

Truer words were never sung.

Piratebay.

For the record, everytime you criticised me, said i wasn’t doing something right, asked me not to do something, i didn’t accuse you of not trusting me, i didn’t ask whats wrong with you, i didn’t say you were judging me. I didn’t like it, but i didn’t say it was something it was not. Yesterday i started off saying something which seemed a little insincere to me, and by the end of the night, had ended up with me being pushed into saying something else entirely, which upon retrospection, i don’t even think its true in any measure at all.

So no i don’t think your a bad friend. Please don’t make me think I’ve become one as well.

Am staring at the pile of photos in front of me which my Professor wants me to clean up, and I have no idea where to start. They are so low resolution, and so grainy. My heart weeps for the injustice that has been done to these coins. *gingerly grabs healing spot brush*

Gah.

Need time for self.

I think i should just stay away from people. Am a swirling vortex of negativity, cynicism and aggression.

I’m putting my blog back up.

I guess i miss having a public space of my own to vandalise and scandalise.

I miss being connected to everyone and being able to click on their blog links and not read them off like newspaper articles.

I miss having a place to write my thoughts, no matter how childish or imbecilic they may be, which is the reason why i took it off in the first place.

Also, the writing bug is biting me again. I feel like I’m starting to have opinions and ideas.

Well but anyway, i don’t expect to update this frequently. We shall just see how it goes.

 bleah.

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wow. feels like a long time since i touched the keyboard write something that was actual writing and not something copied or rephrased from somewhere else.

i have no idea whats wrong with me. or whether there is even something that i should be worried about.

i just have no questions. 

that troubles me because all my life, i have had too many questions and as the answers came up, i swallowed them voraciously. But more and more, i just feel like everything that comes up now, i just know. 

people would say something, and it would just make sense, but not in the “omg this is brilliant i feel smarter why didn’t i think about it lets talk”  sense but more in the “hmm that’s true”. its hard to put in across in words.

is it because i have reached a stage in life where i’m pretty satisfied with my own identity and in 

have i exhausted all opportunities to learn? i know that is not true, because there are things that can still shock me. but maybe it is beyond my ability to grasp at this point in time, and the only thing i can do, is to wait for these experiences to jump into my warm inviting arms. or maybe i just need to get back to my hobbies of watching movies and reading. o me of little faith, why hast thou forsaken me?